Back in Chch….

Flew down to Chch last night to be greeted by some pretty nasty weather.

As I am not used to hearing rain on the roof, as my bedroom at home is on the bottom floor of a two story house, I was kept awake by the noise on the roof of the Motel.

Then for some reason at about 2:30am I was wide awake. Just in time to feel an earthquake, the first in over 24 hours. Just my luck that they start up again when I come to visit.

Heading back home tomorrow to start packing for the house move on Saturday. Part of me is really looking forward to moving, but another part just hates moving!!!

Just found this image and thought it is kinda cool so wanted to share.

Bugger…

So the plan of being at the beach has gone a bit pear shaped…

Firstly the water at the bach I was using started to be very flakey and then I checked the long range forecast… Not a pretty sight! So I decided to head home, which turned out to be a good move as the weather has indeed turned to crap. Not fun being stuck in the bach when it’s pouring down outside.

Before I left I managed get get the lawns mowed at the bach and also popped down the road to my brothers place and mowed his as well. That was not fun…

Before:

After:

Was a bit knackered after doing them…But I must be a sucker as when I got back to The Upper I ended up mowing Amanda’s lawns as well. So mowed three sections in three days. Good exercise but man my knees were sore. I must be getting old.

Anyway the boys are due back today, so we get to open more pressies and then again tomorrow when my folks come down from Waikanae. So the boys end up getting three Xmas’. Lucky boys.

I hope that everyone has a safe and enjoyable New Years and I’ll catch ya in 2012.

The boys are back…

They have been with their mum for the last three weeks before she moves down to Chch to live. The house was so quite and empty without them there, but it is now alive and full of laughter and fun. I didn’t notice how much I missed them till they came back.

And as of 30 December the will be staying with me almost full time. As mentioned above their Mum is moving to Chch to live so they are staying in Upper Hutt with me. Mainly to maintain school and daycare etc. They’ll

I am really stoked that this is happening, but also going to miss “Me” time. It’s going to be a challenge but one I frankly can’t wait for!

Sometimes I wonder why….

I put myself out there and help people, when at the end of the day I feel that I am just getting used! It seems I only hear from some people when they want something from me. Any other time I hardly hear boo from them.

Or is it just me reading things completely wrong?

And no this is not pointed at anyone in particular, just an observation.

TwentyEleven…. The year that was…

OMG almost another year gone. They seem to fly past so quickly now, it only feels like yesterday that we were celebrating New Years.

So what has 2011 brought me?? Well one thing is for sure things happened in 2011 that I don’t think anyone could have foreseen.

2011 started out great, with New Years being spent with Bevan and his family at the Blue Lake in Rotorua. A number of colds ones were drunk and overall was a great way to see in the new year.

Then it was down to Waikawa Beach for a few days R&R with the boys, and then a couple by myself.

Back to Whitby to start packing for the move from there to Silverstream was the next item on the list. Moving is always such fun, even more so listening to Farmer Wayne bitch and whine about the 10 steps down to the new place… Man you must be getting old!!

A few days after settling into Silverstream it was off to Chch for one of my now regular trips down there for Census. However this was one trip I will never forget. At 12:51pm on the 22nd of February 2011, life in Christchurch changed forever. A 6.2 earthquake, centered just outside the CBD, caused the loss of 181 lives and changed the face of Chch. I detailed my experience here. I’ve been back to Chch only a couple of times since then and the place is a very sad sight.

Another big change came in March, when I not only turned 40, but ALL Windows machines were replaced with Apple Mac’s, firstly a MacBook Pro and later a 27″ iMac. 40… Well there’s a milestone that I never thought I would make, and thanks to all those that came and helped my celebrate. And as for the Mac’s… Still lovin them.

April… That brought a new experience… I was chosen to go on a drive day at Hampton Downs with VW NZ. More on that here.

April also brought an addition to the Tock clan… Doris the kitten (now cat!) joined us. She’s proved to be a bit of a fighter by beating up the odd dog (Sorry Jake!) and inflicting many a scratch when I have teased her a bit far! And finally in April my Dad turned 80 years young… Doesn’t look a day over 79!!

The middle of the year was just that the middle and in NZ that means winter… So not alot happens in winter. July brought us Alex’s 8th B’day and I am so proud of the fine young man he is going into. He must have looked at his dad and decided to do everything I didn’t!!

August found me in Sydney for the first time in almost 6 years. Had an awesome time catching up with Cherie and Brent from Perth and celebrating Amanda’s 39th B’day. Pikkies can be found here.

Next up was Reegan’s 4th B’day. It only feels like yesterday that he was born. So many things have happened in that four years, but one thing remains the same, my love for my boys. They are my world. Love you both xxx.

The middle of August gave us another once in a life time event… A major dump of snow across almost all of New Zealand. I was unable to get to work for three days as the roads were closed. The boys had a great time in the snow making snowmen and throwing snowballs.

End of August brought the annual Microsoft TechEd conference in Auckland, which as it was on a Wednesday, Thursday and Friday this year I was able to tack on a couple of days on Waiheke Island with some friends. Stunning place, just sorry for one of those there the memories have been soured by subsequent events.

September meant the end of the anti-nut pills that I had been on for over two years. So please with myself that I have been able to get off them. Depression is still a daily battle, but thankfully one that I am winning. :-)

October… Two events stand out… The loss to the world of Steve Jobs. I’m not a fanboi but the man changed the world, while still managing to be a major pain in the arse!! There’s hope for me yet! And the second, my annual butt on the couch day… Bathurst!… No more to say on that..Lol

The last few months have just gone in a blur, so not much to add there really.

So 2012 what surprises do you have instore for me??

Finally wishing everyone a safe and merry Christmas and a awesome new years.

Sometimes I wish…

I was able to convert the words that randomly float around in my head to actual words in a document! I think I’m pretty good at talking about things, but writing them down? Complete shite really!

I have been writing a document for work for a while now and while I know exactly what I need to do, technically wise, actually putting this into a document is proving to be somewhat difficult.

Also I have lots of things that I would love to put down in words about my experiences with depression and what the last three years has been like for me. This would be a great way for me to deal with and move on from that pretty ruff time. But I would also like to put it out there that depression is something that you can overcome, which to a very large degree I have, and that it’s something that you can control. I will never be free of depression and unfortunately I have been tagged somewhat with being so open about it, which makes dealing with it that little bit harder.

So for me right now I need to get some focus on what I want out of life and where I want to be in six, 12 & 18 months. Firstly I think it’s this freakin document to get outta the way!!

So if anyone knows any good ways of converting shit in your head to actual output, please let me know.

 

What to do…

Just feel kinda in a void at the moment and I’m not sure what I can do to change things.

I know I have some changes coming soon(ish) but I’m not sure they will be enough to get me out of the rut I currently feel like I’m in.